a story of wolfgirl...

wolfgirl wanna talk on wolfgirl but not on someone 2day...
wolfgirl wanna talk wolfgirl own story b4 step into human life...
a story make wolfgirl refuse to close to family n bcos unsafety n inconfident in mentality...
ever n last forever...

wolfgirl r so admire other's family...
they r so close to each other...
so lov to each other...
ever...
wolfgirl dunno how many times swear...
wolfgirl wont act as the parents of wolfgirl when bcom mother of wolfgirl's future kids
n wolfgirl acknowledge that wolfgirl ever n last forever swear that wolfgirl will move out from family when wolfgirl hav ability...
wolfgirl know wolfgirl is non-filial...is inexorable...

wolfgirl wont be a mother who
juz know scold her kids for teaching homework juz bcos wanna watching TV

wolfgirl wont be a mother who
juz only hope n hope n force her kids stay in home n no need go co-curiculum of school
n even her kid hav to go...better find way to go themselves but not annoying parents...

also...
wolfgirl wont be a mother who
will say her kids'school n frens false or bad words when angrying...

wolfgirl wont be a mother who
will curse her kid to go die when angrying...

wolfgirl wont be a mother who
simply blame her kid juz bcos her kid do something n disturb her watching TV...

wolfgirl wont be a mother who
will blame her kid bcos say good word for others when she(mother) is cursing others...

n also n also...
wolfgirl wont be a mother who
will no care her kid if her kid wan to suicide bcos she is busy watching TV...

wolfgirl wont be a mother who
will no do housword but only order her kids to do housework...

last...
wolfgirl wont be a mother who
disallow her kid join outside society camp or be ajk of the camp juz bcos of they dislike someone of the society...

cant refuse to acknowledge that wolfgirl should appreciate wat they done on wolfgirl...
make wolfgirl learn to cry...
n to be inexorable...
n make wolfgirl to be a lonely ppl during secondary school time...
n make wolfgirl decide to take the course wat wolfgirl is studying now...
n make wolfgirl cant easy to close to ppl now

that's y...
wolfgirl frens r less n less...
n wolfgirl dunno whoelse can be wolfgirl's best frens...
best frens ever...
wolfgirl...lack of contact...
distance bcom far in heart...
wolfgirl bcom no easy to believe the frenship...
wolfgirl dunno the best fren of now whether can last in future or juz a pedestrian in wolfgirl's life...
even is someone...
bcos unsafety in mental make wolfgirl inconfident in the lov relationship...

wolfgirl got a feeling...

wolfgirl got a feeling
but dunno is true or false
ever
wolfgirl thought that life now will be my future
wont change
but now
wolfgirl r confusing
wolfgirl hav met someone wolfgirl r care so much in this few days
happy life
bcos got him bside wolfgirl
but the end of happy life
is not happy
no querrel
juz a little bit discussion through msn
someone hav ask wolfgirl
or blame wolfgirl
shouldnt spend times+money on guys
wolfgirl get shocked n heart be touch at that moment
now only discover
in this few times of conversation v someone
something was changes
n now
wolfgirl hav recall back that
wolfgirl ever saw pm of my frens in msn
she write:
"many girls didnt grow up after graduate from school even in a lov relationship...but men is...only when girls know to grow up...men only wont leave away from girls..."
wolfgirl now only understant this whole sentance
now only know
wolfgirl r still stay on the same step of wolfgirl's life
but he's not
his mind hav grew up since he left here for studying at other place
juz wolfgirl r still stubborn n stick to wat wolfgirl r believe
totally is false
n
may be wolfgirl wont go find someone again during chrismate le
both of us need a rest
may b for him but not me at all
sorry for let him spend so much money on wolfgirl in kl
if
giv me 1 more times
wolfgirl will still choose to go to find him
although someone dislike me go bcos of wasting money n times as wolfgirl nothing to do at there
but wolfgirl no mind
as wolfgirl is a...
wolf who wont regret in making decision
juz like loving someone...
by the way
still hope to say
happy anniversary of our 1 years n 6 months lov
althought
2night is a trouble night...

endless trash can...

does all guy wont diclose all their secret in their heart??
sometimes or most of the time
wolfgirl r so curious about this question
feel so unfair lo
he is like a trash can
only receive all the rubbish i throw to him nonstop
endless trash can
rubbish in his heart nvr nvr will automatically come out
make me doubt that is that bcos i m nor so close to him until hav qualified to receive his rubbish??
weird weird weird

how if we break up?

wolfgirl r scared
when he ask wolfgirl how if we break up
wolfgirl r shocked n dunno how to answer
hahaa
is that bcos wolfgirl never thought this question b4?
is that bcos wolfgirl r too believing our future
hmm
seem is like this lo
dunno this question wont bcom real or not...

stress>>>alone

hmm

seem like a heavy period recently

a lot of deadline for pass up assignment in this few week

cant breath

wanna die le

haih...

stress

lack of sleep

always feel wanna to be pig no matter at where n do wat thing

panda panda n panda eyes...

hmm

juz escape from death few days ago

if saw his face

may b will appear on newspaper n bye to all my frens lo

hohoh

now only know wolfgirl didnt hav good quality of sleep

always easily scared n wake up during sleep

may b is bcos mentaly myself is unsecure in life

stress from many things

but dunno is wat

but recently wolfgirl only realise that wolfgirl r scared to be alone although wolfgirl hav been alone since long times ago

but recently feeling bcom stronger n stronger

may b is bcos of thief matter

so that's y wolfgirk bcom stubborn n stubborn to him

n wolfgirl know wolfgirl is a so ma fan n kacauing gf for him

haha

sorry to him ah

but cant correct my stubborn le

bcos wolfgirl hav make decision lo

hehee

will meet him soon ah

wolfgirl hope so