once again
I am here to talk about family
it's already a "must" post every semester break when I'm at hometown
please skip this post if you think I am unrespect to parents
hmmm
a very hundred time I hope to escape from this family
and a very thousand time I am admire my friend family
they are happy without a lot of arguement
and most important is they having whose parents can make jokes, understand chilren, and willing to communicate with children without control them in traditional way
I know
the ideal family in my mind is a western style family
every member in family even children have their freedom and right in action and spoken words besides respect to elders
and most important is TWO way communication is conduct in the family
the feedback children given to parents every time during arguement wont be rejected by parents
feedback in two way communication is a clue to help to solve the conflict
but should not to be seen as a resistance
although I am study in Chinese school either primary school or secondary school
but it's doesn't matter that I should follow the Chinese traditional style in my lifestyle
I would prefer to practice western style most of the time
I am not here to criticize Chinese traditional but to praise western style
however
from what I can observe through my family
I am seriously dislike the conservative mind of Chinese traditional
one main point in the style is
Discrimanation
my family only have daughter as my sister and me without any son
and so I can realize how the conservative the Chinese traditional is
girl should be stay at home and should not going out too often
better if they no go out
cannot go to far place
girl must not back home late than 12am at night
and so on
and it make me think of I might go to do plastic surgery to become a guy
I know I might be brave sometimes
WTF
fine
I know I am still not prepare yet to escape from this family to fight for my freedom
so
the Chinise traditional in my family have force me to CHANGE
whatever thing they no allow
I DO IT
without their consent
it's means that I done it secretly
I won't share with you here as these are secret
but I can tell you
I am not a good daughter in their standard aways
I choose to not let them know is just because I am prepare for my plan
but not to scare to be blamed or scold
one day
my plan will be achieved
soon
hmmm
when I took my course of PR
the main reason is because I want to improve my communication skill with them besides no any idea of what courses to study
but after 2 years of my diploma life
I am still can't found the way to improve it
maybe is because my personality of can't forgive what they have done to me
or because I already disappointed with the family
so I choose to give up
don't try to console me anything related to how to improve relationship with them
maybe your advice will work but the problem is
I already lost trust and effort
sure
since I dislike my family
so I am very hate semester break and CNY
that's why I will very late on back to hometown after exam
~the end~
