Haji Day=Tear Drop Day

hmm

is me again

feels so messy and annoyed with my blog layout and arrangment

plan to have a big "renovation" or "moving house"

but lazy as it's will be a big process

hmm

i think ah mei said the right thing

i'm in stress and that's why i keep dreaming regurlary

dream of anyone 

include her, someone, someone's cousin and "her"

but "her" was the person who i had dream most these few days

she was one of my best friend of our gang in secondary school

and she was one of my housemate for the past two years of diploma life too

but

end of diploma life become an ending of our friendship

just because of a small matter caused by our personalities

and so

no more contact and chatting between us

deleted from her facebook too

told someone about this matter

he's a good listener especially on droving

i said:

"i think i know the reason of dreaming her,

i'm still can't forget this friend and it's a permanent regretful memory of my life

because i never thought that our friendship easy to broke as a small matter"

ya

i really apologies to this friendship

maybe

our unmatch personalities have make me can't hold this friendship

sorry

hmm

maybe

today is really a sad day for me that i might think of sad thing
*i'm emotional today*

suddenly intended to told someone about my past history during the way he drove back home

because having some stress from his family side

(no worry...it's not a big matter for me...)

feels so comforted when told my past history in front of him everytime

he's really a good listener although i prefer some responses from him

and he only gave the only one consolation to me

"sometime ridiculous is good in your life..." 

it indicated that i should take some ridiculous or adventurous action so that life might changed

thanks for her hug too

feels so touch when i ask for a kiss as consolation

his hand automatically hug me to him and kiss me

i think he's only will automatically giving me kiss without escaping when i am crying

=.=

well

it's time to end this sad post

or else

tears will drop out again

before i head to finding my journals

just wanted to share with you guys a few photos when going his family dinner last weekend

i looks so slim

XP

 hilo

me and someone's cousin's daughter

me and someone

and last

my back of messy hair tie

~the end~