a story of wolfgirl...

wolfgirl wanna talk on wolfgirl but not on someone 2day...
wolfgirl wanna talk wolfgirl own story b4 step into human life...
a story make wolfgirl refuse to close to family n bcos unsafety n inconfident in mentality...
ever n last forever...

wolfgirl r so admire other's family...
they r so close to each other...
so lov to each other...
ever...
wolfgirl dunno how many times swear...
wolfgirl wont act as the parents of wolfgirl when bcom mother of wolfgirl's future kids
n wolfgirl acknowledge that wolfgirl ever n last forever swear that wolfgirl will move out from family when wolfgirl hav ability...
wolfgirl know wolfgirl is non-filial...is inexorable...

wolfgirl wont be a mother who
juz know scold her kids for teaching homework juz bcos wanna watching TV

wolfgirl wont be a mother who
juz only hope n hope n force her kids stay in home n no need go co-curiculum of school
n even her kid hav to go...better find way to go themselves but not annoying parents...

also...
wolfgirl wont be a mother who
will say her kids'school n frens false or bad words when angrying...

wolfgirl wont be a mother who
will curse her kid to go die when angrying...

wolfgirl wont be a mother who
simply blame her kid juz bcos her kid do something n disturb her watching TV...

wolfgirl wont be a mother who
will blame her kid bcos say good word for others when she(mother) is cursing others...

n also n also...
wolfgirl wont be a mother who
will no care her kid if her kid wan to suicide bcos she is busy watching TV...

wolfgirl wont be a mother who
will no do housword but only order her kids to do housework...

last...
wolfgirl wont be a mother who
disallow her kid join outside society camp or be ajk of the camp juz bcos of they dislike someone of the society...

cant refuse to acknowledge that wolfgirl should appreciate wat they done on wolfgirl...
make wolfgirl learn to cry...
n to be inexorable...
n make wolfgirl to be a lonely ppl during secondary school time...
n make wolfgirl decide to take the course wat wolfgirl is studying now...
n make wolfgirl cant easy to close to ppl now

that's y...
wolfgirl frens r less n less...
n wolfgirl dunno whoelse can be wolfgirl's best frens...
best frens ever...
wolfgirl...lack of contact...
distance bcom far in heart...
wolfgirl bcom no easy to believe the frenship...
wolfgirl dunno the best fren of now whether can last in future or juz a pedestrian in wolfgirl's life...
even is someone...
bcos unsafety in mental make wolfgirl inconfident in the lov relationship...

wolfgirl got a feeling...

wolfgirl got a feeling
but dunno is true or false
ever
wolfgirl thought that life now will be my future
wont change
but now
wolfgirl r confusing
wolfgirl hav met someone wolfgirl r care so much in this few days
happy life
bcos got him bside wolfgirl
but the end of happy life
is not happy
no querrel
juz a little bit discussion through msn
someone hav ask wolfgirl
or blame wolfgirl
shouldnt spend times+money on guys
wolfgirl get shocked n heart be touch at that moment
now only discover
in this few times of conversation v someone
something was changes
n now
wolfgirl hav recall back that
wolfgirl ever saw pm of my frens in msn
she write:
"many girls didnt grow up after graduate from school even in a lov relationship...but men is...only when girls know to grow up...men only wont leave away from girls..."
wolfgirl now only understant this whole sentance
now only know
wolfgirl r still stay on the same step of wolfgirl's life
but he's not
his mind hav grew up since he left here for studying at other place
juz wolfgirl r still stubborn n stick to wat wolfgirl r believe
totally is false
n
may be wolfgirl wont go find someone again during chrismate le
both of us need a rest
may b for him but not me at all
sorry for let him spend so much money on wolfgirl in kl
if
giv me 1 more times
wolfgirl will still choose to go to find him
although someone dislike me go bcos of wasting money n times as wolfgirl nothing to do at there
but wolfgirl no mind
as wolfgirl is a...
wolf who wont regret in making decision
juz like loving someone...
by the way
still hope to say
happy anniversary of our 1 years n 6 months lov
althought
2night is a trouble night...

endless trash can...

does all guy wont diclose all their secret in their heart??
sometimes or most of the time
wolfgirl r so curious about this question
feel so unfair lo
he is like a trash can
only receive all the rubbish i throw to him nonstop
endless trash can
rubbish in his heart nvr nvr will automatically come out
make me doubt that is that bcos i m nor so close to him until hav qualified to receive his rubbish??
weird weird weird

how if we break up?

wolfgirl r scared
when he ask wolfgirl how if we break up
wolfgirl r shocked n dunno how to answer
hahaa
is that bcos wolfgirl never thought this question b4?
is that bcos wolfgirl r too believing our future
hmm
seem is like this lo
dunno this question wont bcom real or not...

stress>>>alone

hmm

seem like a heavy period recently

a lot of deadline for pass up assignment in this few week

cant breath

wanna die le

haih...

stress

lack of sleep

always feel wanna to be pig no matter at where n do wat thing

panda panda n panda eyes...

hmm

juz escape from death few days ago

if saw his face

may b will appear on newspaper n bye to all my frens lo

hohoh

now only know wolfgirl didnt hav good quality of sleep

always easily scared n wake up during sleep

may b is bcos mentaly myself is unsecure in life

stress from many things

but dunno is wat

but recently wolfgirl only realise that wolfgirl r scared to be alone although wolfgirl hav been alone since long times ago

but recently feeling bcom stronger n stronger

may b is bcos of thief matter

so that's y wolfgirk bcom stubborn n stubborn to him

n wolfgirl know wolfgirl is a so ma fan n kacauing gf for him

haha

sorry to him ah

but cant correct my stubborn le

bcos wolfgirl hav make decision lo

hehee

will meet him soon ah

wolfgirl hope so

hitting on bf...

someone hav told wolfgirl that he found that seem like every gf like to hit their bf ass or there or other place else

hmmm

it make wolfgirl think about it deeply

n wolfgirl finally know that the reason of gf like to do that

not bcos it's funny(sometimes is...:P)

but mostly

is bcos gf wan to announce the ownership of being a gf

"he is mine"

yes

ever dun underestimate how much a gf care on the ownership of his bf

juz like how much a gf ask the question of "u lov who most between ur previous gfs n me?"

girls r not as calm as men in believing the loyalty of their lover on themselve

girls know that there r too many temptation at outside

gf knows

for men

wildflower ever r sweeter smelting than gf even their gf already is r prettier girl v s-shape body

so

to avoid bf scrambled by these wildflower

gf choose to take the initiative by hit bf there

hhaaa

m wolfgirl right??

girls??

well...

althoughtwolfgirl is the supersupporter for this action

however

girls better be careful the strength of hitting lo

if not

then ur bf...

may be is the next victim of afraid to raise their gun le

:P

try hard or giv up?

Sometime
anything can be happens in a lov relationship
might b is querrel, distrust, betray, cheating or other else
but 2day wolfgirl is not aim to discuss these elements

2day
wolfgirl hope to say something about merge in personalities between each other
wolfgirl nvr hav fall in lov v any guys b4 accept someone now
so may b some of u will claim that wolfgirl is not qualified to talk on this issue
but wolfgirl is here not to teach wat should u do n wat should not u do in lov relationship
wolfgirl is juz only express wat wolfgirl r think about on it

sometimes
n may b most of the time
when ppl r alone or facing something that r unhappy
wolfgirl will ask myself
is someone is match v my personality?
is him suitable for me to hold his hand n be together 4ever?
is him will be my only man in my whole life?
n bla bla bla...

ya
these kind of question really always come out in my mind especially since someone r not here
but at the end
wolfgirl normally will overcome my confident for this lov relationship
not bcos wolfgirl compulsory know that we cant b separate for any potential
but is juz bcos that
wolfgirl know that the chance we can meet together r given by god
n we should appreciate wat god hav giv us

althought wolfgirl is not hav a loyal belief on any religious
so even wolfgirl dunno how is the end we will be
but wolfgirl realize that wolfgirl rather to try hard than giv up when facing any problem
but no matter wat u choose
u cant only say without action
summore u muz handle well
if not
u r failure in lov relationship paper

hmm
wolfgirl is only get 50 mark of 100 mark in this paper
bcos wolfgirl still is not an expert in pak tou lo
so wolfgirl will try my best to get full marks in this paper
n hope that can bring this paper to my future wedding ah

last
wolfgirl hope to say that
actually
not everyone's lov relationship is same n should be same
if not
then wolfgirl think we are robot but not human le
so wolfgirl think that we can force other to act wat we act in lov relationship
u get wat i means?

n if can
dun judge too much on other's lov relationship
bcos not everyone muz treat their lover in same way as other ppl
as all ppl hav different kind of personalities
n may be this 'same' way is not suitable to apply in their lov relationship
so
sometimes
may b break the rule is a best way to stay along v her or him

latest trip at somewhere v my dearest frens

me at somewhere

6 of us

hohoho
we r wearing same design de shoes oh

all guys accept my dear bcos he is late

1 year n 5 months

cant believe that we can be together until now
1 year n 5 months
a long time for me
juz like the first 3 months where wolfgirl thought that is already a long time for wolfgirl
n now
1 more susprise
unbelievable
so curious y we can b together for so long time
actually wolfgirl r almost forgetting our anniversary juz like u
but may b is bcos of reminded by god
so even wolfgirl is already tired after going to workshop wholeday
buy wolfgirl was suddenly remember this special day when wolfgirl r pratice the woftware learned in hostel
so
wolfgirl decided to ask him b4 wanna sleep
n wolfgirl thought he will sure forget wat day 2day is
n wolfgirl feel sad n tears drop out again
but
dunno is him know wat m wolfgirl thinking in heart like usual?
he hav wish wolfgirl happy anniversay of dunno how many months
wolfgirl really dunno wat should wolfgirl feel that time
susprise+happy/sad?
:S
know him de la
always no count how long time we hav be together de
n we nvr celebrate any special day between us
even is our both bday or valentine day
haih
sad lo
n wolfgirl know
valentine day in next year
we sure also cant celebrate le
as wolfgirl m at htown-butterworth
althought he hav back to here-penang
haih
weird
actually our bday r so close to each other
he is on 1st n wolfgirl is on 4th
n we r from same horoscope also
yi
now only found that the day we start to be together is the sum of our bday date
1+4=14th
haha
waw
seem like we having so many similarities
he like to eat spicy juz like me
he is same horoscope v me
he is childish when v me juz like me when v him
he is ...
hmm...
hahah...
dunno hav wat similarities le
:P
hmm...
but wolfgirl know him threat me different from other girls
n if there is no any wrong happens between us
wolfgirl hope that
he can be my first lover n...
the last lover in my life
but dunno
n wolfgirl know that wolfgirl r so willfulness
n wolfgirl will try it hard to change my bad temper
dear
happy anniversary of dunno how many months
loving someone...
14th june 08
a memorable day

i hope so

some time i m so curious on the various personaliies of human
i hav met different kind of personalities of ppl in my life even i m only 19 now
some ppl r having bad mouth, like to caricature n curse ppl in behind
some ppl r having 2 types of faces, 1 is kindly face n other 1 is original face
some ppl r mature on their behavior n attidute but childish in their heart
some ppl r in opposite
some ppl r totally mature at all
some ppl r totally childish at all
some ppl r conspiracy when communicate v ppl
some ppl r prostitute even they r not really r
some ppl r acting in their whole life
some ppl r like to show off
some ppl r hypocrisy
some ppl r smart
even i hav met many ppl of these kinds personalities around me
but i m still confusing sometimes
wat kind of ppl should i close to n wat kind of ppl i should avoid?
long time ago
i thought that i already lose feeling on any kind of personalities of ppl
i thought that i won't hav bad comment when close to them
but now only i know i m still a human but now a wood
even how patient i m
but sometime i will still feel angry in my heart when face some problem
but wat can i do?
she is my fren
n i think she is a nice person in usual time
but i dunno
if she hav so many consideration n guideline for me in doing project
y don't her demonstrate for me?
but only will ask me no to do that or that?
that's all wat i wan to say
n i hope her will not bcom thet person i dislike forever-my mom
bcos thet r similar
both like to caricature ppl
n both r same horoscope
n like to say bad word behind ppl
i hope so

psycho

haih...
i lov psycho...
but why psycho no lov me de??
question is easy...
if hav study...
but for me...
i m die in the exam...
haih...
rm 80 will hav to spend for this subject le...
regret no start study earlier...
but useless...
next time sure will pass de le...
bcos i now hav a small goals for graduate le...
i expect to go to kl...
i wan to be success in my study...
n summore is...
i lov kl as someone at there ah...

when she is in a lov relationship...(2)

in a lov relationship, hurting each other, juz to prove that vigorous of lov relationship

however, there is no right or wrong in lov relationship

there is also no more or less between each other in lov relationship

u lov her, she lov u
that's enough

don't attempt to let each other be hurted, fragile sadness

u both lov each other, u both need warm, happiness, sweet n happiness, but not hurt

don't use silent to declare war, don't don't forgive each other

n don't left with silent, don't left with cool

u need to know, when u leave, there r mist in ur eyes, n her eyes r flood

the more silent the more querrel n declaration of war, this is declaration of war n also hurting for each other

no matter how the compound is, the wound ever exist, ever ineradicle

please giv her a hug, use ur hug to resolve the sorrow n tears

she lov u, she won't reject ur hug, she juz scare u turn around queitly

please remember, no querrel easily v the person u lov, bcos querrel brings hurt, overestimate

please remember, once u lov her, no hav anything u can't accept

once u lov her, u lov her all thig

so all her tempet, her weakness, u c it as flighty

please remember, she lov u, she no need u to really turn around, wat she hav spoke out is not wat her heart said

she only wan u to pamper her, wan u to hug her, even, no apology

translated by wolfgirl

when she is in a lov relationship...(1)

In fact, many boys do not know
girl's tears can;t stop fall down to the floor after quarrel v their bf

In fact, many boys do not know
girl never will real angry v their bf, bcos she is really care about him

In fact, many boys do not know
girl only will clack on the guy she lov, grizzle v the guy she lov

u hav to know, if she don't lov u, she won't care n concern about u, scare u do mistake
u hav to know, if she don't lov u, she will don't get angry at you like a baby let you coax her,
she is a lady in front of other ppl

u hav to know, if she don't lov u, she will don't let u make her cry n sod

even she r angry but also only will angry for no more than 2 days

all these is juz bcos she is lov u, n all she sad juz bcos u no care n understand enough her

therefore, u both always querrel, u assume that her temper is not good, she think u no adapt to her

therefore, u both always in cold war, u assume that she no lov u, she think u no care about her

therefore, u both always pass through from each other, or perhaps passing is the frustration and sadness with happiness

u must know, pathos is a type of beautiful n it is magnificent desolation and the vicissitudes of life

bcos of loving u, so sometimes she get temper v u, always flighty v u


bcos of loving u, that's y she get angry v u
n juz bcos of loving u, that's y she get angry v u for a long time

did u know, heart of girl r made up of crystal, sparkling, but easy shattered

did u know, every girl r unfortified, u get through easily but left hurt

she never know, that is no anyone can make her cry in this world

bcos the person who is value to made her cry r not willing to made her cry

she is always restrained
she is always pretension
she is always cool
she is always ask u leave her alone
but her heart is ask u to accompany her

did u understand that girl?

please open ur ear
please open ur heart
to listen to her true call in heart
but not her word in mouth

she will look u turn around
n follow u turn around
when u passing her

u won't see her tears
on her face, in her heart

if u lov her, please accompany her more
if u lov her, please pamper her mor
if u lov her, please let her more
if u lov her, please listen to her voice in her heart carefully, that is scream-please hug her

translated by wolfgirl

fish>>>spa

hehe

first time trying fish spa oh

nice nice nice

h1n1?!scary...

scary scary ah...
recently h1n1 seem hav bcom serious in penang
always can hear from frens that
our college hav h1n1 case
n hav few students comfirm le
n also hav few students are suspected
so scary
may students wearing mask in college
make we all so scare
summore if anyone r sick
we first response r
did u hav all the symptons of h1n1
so scare nia
haihaih
wolfgirl now so scary also
bcos wolfgirl these few day always cough
n b serious le
still thinking wanna go c doctor or not
but wolfgirl scare doctor ask me go stay in hospital or home
haiha...
hope body faster be good good la
bcos wolfgirl hav presentation on next monday ah
:(

dun always talk nonsense la...

"don't always talk nonsense la..."

wolfgirl r thinking now

sometimes guy r no understand y gf always like to talk nonsense

not bcos girl r not serious ppl

is bcos girl r trying to make bf happy n release from stress

guy dunno that no matter how serious their gf actually r in daily life

girl will try to act like nonsense ppl in front of their bf

juz bcos they dun 1 their bf to worry about them

juz bcos they know that their stress r more lighter than their bf''s stress

so they will act as nonsense ppl after complain their stress to their bf

bcos they wan their bf to forget exist of pressure


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wolfgirl r bet my lov relationship now

wolfgirl bet that my lov relationship will last forever v my intuition

wolfgirl dun 1 to think the meaning brought by his saying

wolfgirl dun 1 to push myself into sad memory yet

someone hav ask wolfgirl y wolfgirl always in bad mood de

n wolfgirl can't giv him a proper answer on the spot

is it bcos wolfgirl's personality are more emphasize on sadness?

or is bcos thing around me always lead me fall into bad mood??

or juz bcos wolfgirl hav bcos sad ppl after someone stay far away from me???


if one day ur bf ask u to no always talk nonsense thing


how will u response?


wolfgirl's tears r attempt to run out from my eyes in this moment


wolfgirl try to no breath


juz to dun 1 let someone know that wolfgirl r crying in other side of the phone


sometimes


wolfgirl really lov lov relationship


as it let wolfgirl bcom sweet n happy


sometimes


wolfgirl will regret to fall in lov


as it bring a lot of pain to wolfgirl


but if wan wolfgirl to leave from the lov relationship


then wolfgirl can't do it


as wolfgirl not willing to escape from challenge in lov relationship


mayb it is the time to let we both take a rest for awhile


wolfgirl means juz leave some space to let each other breath


juz like rubber ban


cannot too loose n too tight


may be wolfgirl r too long time no meet someone le


that's y wolfgirl easy to fall tears when talk v someone


wolfgirl really is not like a wolf


wolfgirl r bcom more moody le


since someone hav award me the emotion that wolfgirl never hav b4


thanks to someone


but these emotion r really such a suffer gift for wolfgirl


dunno someone will c wolfgirl writing mah??


mayb yes mayb no


but most possible is no de


wolfgirl think that someone already forget wolfgirl de blog le ba


basically


wolfgirl write blog is not aim for let other read de


but sometimes


mayb most of the time


wolfgirl r more write blog for someone de


so wolfgirl hope that someone may tidak sengaja de hav read wolfgirl's blog...


but may be someone will more understand wolfgirl after read wolfgirl's blog


or may be someone will found that wolfgirl r different as wat the wolfgirl u know b4


dunno


wolfgirl dunno...


2night is still a silence night


without star n moon n rain


dunno someone r doing wat now ah??


is him sleeping now?


wolfgirl hope he is sleeping...


g9...


hope someone hav a sweet dream without me...


since he will feel vexed if wolfgirl at there...


good night or good midnight...

prom night look

b4 go prom night

wolfgirl r look at??target food??

hehe~~wolfgirl r appears at night le oh^^

wat u really wanted to be?

Fourth Chapter Never Never Vigorous
I Dunno Wat I Wan To Be

i believe b4, the most terrible thing is dunno wat each other wan to be

wat do him think in his heart?does him lov me?who he lov more?

does him wan to be v me together?Does all he told is real?

watdo him hope me to be?

does his future include me?

i juz hope that i can know wat he think in his heart, so i no need to hesitate now

when i m really can't guess, i only ask:

"wat u really wan to be?"

his answer is unclear.since that time, i swear will lov myself more, i will no guess again wat he is thinking

until, one day, i found that, i dunno wat i wan to be, is the most terrible thing.

if u ask me wan i really wan to be, i would say that i also dunno.

i never lost direction like now. i m not wan to prolong, i m also no wan to lie u, but i really dunno wat m i wan to be

u keep asking, but i still can't giv u a satisfied answer. in this moment, i awake suddenly, when i m asking other ppl " wat does u really want o be?", i m so young.

benefit of young, dun simply push the responsible to other ppl. originally, when we r grew up, no young anymore, we juz found that, the most terrible, r not anybody, r ourselve.

translated from wolfgirl

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yaya...

wolfgirl always fall into this condition de...

i lov the person who u r now

Second Chapter Never Never Agony

The Thing You Want Me To Know

we all hav our past except we r first lover for each other

when we r young, we would ask:

"how many lov relationship do u hav?"

"how many gf do u hav b4?"

"how many sex relationship do u hav b4?"

"y u will broke up v her?r her was ur true lover?"

when we growth up a bit, after we hav more lov relationship experience, we won't ask these kind of questions again

i even no want to knowif he will say, then i sure would like to listen.

how can't i dun wan to know?i juz dun wan to seek the answer myselfi will listen to how much he decide to say.

he will tell me gradually.i won't ask when he stop to tell me suddenly.

one day,when mention our last lov relationship, if he say:

"u know all my past."

then i will smile n say:

"i know wat u wan to let me know."

yes, i only will know wat u wan me to know.i won't tell u anything i dun wan to talk.

i lov the person who u r now, so y i hav to force u to tell me ur past? that is juz like i force u to lie on me. if i know ur past lover r too good, i will jealous. i rather to dunno. so i juz can believe that i m ur true lover forever.translated by wolfgirl

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wolfgirl really need to leard from wat wolfgirl hav read in this book

so so meaningful...

fearless

wolfgirl

last week

a happy week v my bday n PR fair
finally
PR fair hav pass
n we all can take de long rest
but
god won't treat us so kind de
a lot of problem hav appears gradually
wolfgirl mayb really need to learn more from other especially shake
she is more mature in her mind n behaviour
while wolfgirl is so childish in all decision n action
wolfgirl know wat the personality wolfgirl really r
wolfgirl is not a patient girl
wolfgirl is dislike last minutes work
n wolfgirl is dislike to querrel face-to-face v ppl
mayb bcos wolfgirl is not so professional in querrel
n also mayb querrel emphasize on my own benefit
that is wolfgirl prefer to hav fren than hav enemy
that's y wolfgirl will keep unhappy thing in heart n only complain to frens but never querrel face-to-face v ppl
wolfgirl really is not a patient girl
although wolfgirl will act patient in first few times
but after concept of punctual hav lost many times
then never hope wolfgirl will act patient anymore
mayb some ppl will say wolfgirl is not a punctual ppl so no qualifies to say like this
but wolfgirl will say that
wolfgirl will only be no patient after same conditions include certain ppl hapens repeatly
last
wolfgirl hate ppl use such XXXX attitude to sms v me
wolfgirl is not anyone's pet or maid
can't juz let ppl use that kind of attitude to order wolfgirl do this do that
please think b4 wanna sms such thing to wolfgirl
wolfgirl will no patient juz bcos worldgirl can't tahan these condition anymore
if they wan to say me
then go ahead
sometimes wolfgirl think we r same horoscope
so mayb we r similar personalities
but the fact tell me
wolfgirl not yet control by my horoscope
or in the opposite hand
wolfgirl won't use horoscope to be an excuse to do over things
sometimes wolfgirl really hope to act like shake
to be a fearless ppl
but seem is a far journey for wolfgirl
mayb wolfgirl only will be a fearless wolfgirl when the end of the world r coming...

tulan

please dun take ppl thing simplyly
i hate ppl do it without my premission
please inform or ask me b4 take my thing
i m very tulan these few day
hard disc hav lost
spoon also
other also
summore wan me lost how many things
hating now

30 July hang out

i like this look^^

first time fren say i look pretty n fashion
so happy de
but unfortunately i m at pragin not gurney
hhaa
so can't forget wong kok at there
as this is the bad experience of my dinner time
service is so bad
server always forget our order repeatly
n treat us badly
dunno is wong kok at prangin only so bad service or all also are bad
at the time i hav dinner at wong kok
i only can comment that
kimXXXry de service are better than that
hahihaih
forgot to say happ birthday to michell that day
30 July
happy bday

happy birthday to someone

to: someone...

2day is a special day for wolfgirl
of course is not wolfgirl's bday la... but near also le...
so lucky hav this special day in wolfgirl life
n wolfgirl was so appreciate the gift givev by God
thanks God let wolfgirl meet someone who was same horoscope v wolfgirl
n summore bday was so close to each other
wolfgirl lov this chance n love
someone also hope wolfgirl's wish will bring to someone's heart...
in the time without someone stay bside wolfgirl
wolfgirl was feel lonely
n juz know that lov is so dependant
wolfgirl hav say that wolfgirl will try to bcom independant since someone was far away
but it's hard n hard
wolfgirl can say wolfgirl hav to seem independant in behaviour
but hard to bcom independent in heart
bcos wolfgirl know wolfgirl hav fall to someone n stick to someone now since we hav met one day and start our story
heart is suffer but hav to act normal
bcos wolfgirl dislike to share lov feeling v frens
aactually wolfgirl was very envy frens since their bf willing to come back juz to giv a susprise to them
wolfgirl was so hope someone will do this also but wolfgirl can't
bcos wolfgirl scare put too much pressure on him
as wolfgirl already hav ask him about such things several times
wolfgirl can't so willfulnessbcos wolfgirl know study is important than lov
as wolfgirl also will emphasize on study if hav to make choice
not bcos study is important than lov
is bcos we both were same horoscope
so wolfgirl can feel that we hope mutual win in our study n lov
that's y wolfgirl hav start keep the mind of playful
juz bcos plan to faster graduate so that can go kl meet someone
yesterday is so rush as plan to giv him a susprise gift on the time of his bday
but wolfgirl's laptop was not a good child
made wolfgirl send him the gift late
wolfgirl feel so sad n hav cry out when my lap treat me like that
but also no dare to let someone know wolfgirl crying
as his bday
so miss him
hope...
we can meet faster...
n hope someone hav a wonderful bday without wolfgirl 2day...
happy bday...
wolfgirl lov n miss someone

from: me

dulan

dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!
dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!
dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!
dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!
dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!
dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!dulan!!
y recently so many things make me dulan de!!!
n force me to say such foul language??
hate ppl ask me do thing last minutes...
hate!!!!!!!!!!

study life is so suffer as i think b4

this is a busy sem for me
especially start from the middle of the sem
a lot of assignment and test...
busy until forming pressure on myself
never so want to escape from the college
but now i m think so
those busy work hav make me crazy
n i m fall into the darkness where i dunno the direction i hav to move
week 9 le
PR fair will held in week 11
although main organization hav been confirmed
but still hav a lot of things not yet settle well
how?how?how?
should i continuos worry those things
or juz leave it bside
worrying
regret to hav such this group structure
but i know that is impossible to regret after i make a decision
i know...
may be i should learn from this lesson next time le
pick member carefully
if not i will be regret again de
study life is so suffer as i think b4
hope can graduate soon n meet my bf in kl ah
miss u evil...

angry v someone but not that someone...

wolfgirl is so so so angry now...
so so stressful v the assignment
not juz bcos the assignment is too hard to do only
is also bcos wolfgirl r so so no "gan ki" v the mind of her
never hav c ppl so so so "native" , "normal", "respect", "forgetful" ...
dunno her mind is made from wat de...
now only know meaning of "helpless"
really curious how she can survise in this society now de...
haven't nobody teach her wat is call respect?
aiyo...
already so inconfident v this assignment
summore need to hav this kind de member
n bla bla bla
die lo
now wolfgirl is so ingin to say FCUK!!!
but no dare yet...
haih...
wolfgirl sure will die in these few week de if this condition r still keep going
n u all should be prepare to attend wolfgirl's funeral le...
oh my god...
god help me ah...
although wolfgirl r not ur child...

life pass slowly...

memorial day hav pass 2 days ago...
many things hav happens within these few months...
roller coaster hav go through my heart...
happy...angry...worry...sad...
assignment...relationship...test...
this period r so stress for me...
assignment r so heavy in my steelyard
until wolfgirl m so scare the coming august
happy in the beginning of starting this assignment
but now wolfgirl m worry n worry b4 the end...
so many inter-problem hav happens within this assignment
n wolfgirl now only know teamwork is so important to achieve a goals
n a good partner is a important factor to work together in an assignment...
so so so...hope everyone can hav good good partner in all task...
n also a good leader is important de...
now is 1 years and 1 months ago...
but day is start pass slowly...
until my lung start breath slowly n like horizon...
enthusiasm...sweetness...lost gradually..
wolfgirl dunno when wolfgirl's life will leave wolfgirl alone...
seem that wolfgirl r no same v the initial
mind r change from day to day
wolfgirl now seem r not a child anymore in wolfgirl's mind
although wolfgirl r still act like a child...
hav bcom more mature?
no...wolfgirl r think so...
bcos...wolfgirl still act like a child in front of anyone...
equilibrium life for now
but waves in heart
quit or no quit?
angry or forgive?
cry or keep tears?
haih...
wolfgirl dislike to be angry...
but y wolfgirl still hav to be angry in heart in this nervous period?
dislike what wolfgirl dislike...
dislike to be a wolfgirl in this condition...
wolfgirl r miss someone now
hope someone can save me from this stress period...
scaring now...
distance make distance far further...
so so no confident v heart distance of someone...
can last forever or ...
holding in once?
heart is teng to first...
but mind is tend to second...
hard to decide...
both r part of bady of wolfgirl...
wolfgirl lov+miss someone...
dunno how someone's thinking ah...

does honest is right to someone??

long time no write blog le...
confusing now...
actually wat is relationship...
wolfgirl hav face a problem recently...
n i thought i hav a best way to solve the problem...
but originally i found that i hav feel so regret after use that way...
thay's y wolfgirl will feel very say within a days after use that way...
wolfgirl thought that wolfgirl hav to separate v someone forever already
n will never meet n contact again...
heart feel so pain n wolfgirl's tears can't stop to fall out...
wolfgirl know wat wolfgirl's heart r thinking n wanted...
but wolfgirl no dare to tell him the true...
wolfgirl always make ppl around me unhappy ba...
if not...
then y everytime ppl who go out v me fanally still hav to worry about me?
wolfgirl thought wolfgirl can hide everything sad deeply...
but originally...
wolfgirl behavior n expression hav betray wolfgirl...
if not...
then y wolfgirl still will seem like hav a big stone fall down in my heart even if i hav a happy time v frens at that day?
wolfgirl can't stop to recall his smell n scene v him anytime
especially when wolfgirl r at the place we hav go ever...
wolfgirl can't stop recall the first time i go eat steamboot is v him...
the first time he accompany me go buy clothes...
the first time we hav date at beach n...
also the first time we start love relationship in cinema...
all ppl around me can found out my weird behaviour n absent-mind...
n after wolfgirl hav a talk v fren...
wolfgirl juz know that honest may be the best way compare v the way wolfgirl using now...
for a long love relationship wolfgirl wanted...
that is...
wolfgirl decide to be honest to someone i lov...
n this is the first time wolfgirl to be honest to someone wolfgirl care very much as wolfgirl is seem like never honest to anybody even family...
wolfgirl r so weak...
bcos wolfgirl always criying when talk v him through phone...
but is that honest really is the best way to solve the problem?
wolfgirl is no sure...
bcos honest is not means that all thing can back to the past...
may be...
wolfgirl feel embarrassed when chat v him now...
how should wolfgirl do ah?
wolfgirl may be is a sentimental person ba...
for now...
since i knew him...
also bcos wolfgirl's heart already steal by him also ba...
wolfgirl hav feel some regret now ba...
but wolfgirl will attempt to no regret wat i hav done already...
as it is not my principal...
like wolfgirl lov somebody...